*might just be in love *

Alright, so here it goes.

So it seems as if I've fallen in love with one of my best friends. His name is not to be mentioned. This fondness has seemed to grown dramatically in the last few months or so, and I'm really not quite sure what I should do about it. On one hand, all of my other friends tell me to dive in; go for it. They all approve. On the other hand. He is such an amazing friend and I would be devastated if I were to lose him as a friend.
Lately it seems that I can't get him out of my mind, even the littlest things are now reminding me of him. This is getting harder to cope with day after day. I love that I've fallen for him, but I hate the fact that he has no clue, and the fact that I don't even know if he feels the same about me. I've been told that by the way that he acts around me, there may be a chance that he does, but I've been hurt and wrong about people in the past, and I have no intention of doing it again. Yes, they say love is about taking risks, but at the same time, I don't want to get the short end of the stick with this one. I'd much rather have him as just a good friend, than not have him at all. So, my friend told me that (even before I told her about my crush) she thought that there was something there between us. She told me, that when him and I are together, our body language gives it away. HA! Body language is a bitch (:
So.. In less than six weeks, our school's annual semi formal is coming up. I've been told that I am to ask him to go with me. Have I mentioned that I'm EXTREMELY chickenshit and would just about have a heart attack if I even was walking over to him to ask him to go?! Well...now you know. (:
I'm not really sure what I'm going to do about these feelings yet. Should I tell him? Let him find out on his own? Investigate his feelings first? Or just leave it to fate? This is what is on my mind... It is indeed driving me mental, and I have to do something about it...FAST. What I do though, is still undecided... but I know that what ever I decide, I will have no regrets and hope to god that it was the right thing to do.
So...Until next time, I'm Syd' and I might just be in love..<3